There are times when I'm really glad I started this blog. Like now, for instance. I would have already lost count of how far along I was were it not for my weekly updates. So, 15 weeks down, 25 more to go! It feels like I'm already so close to half-way...until I realize that those extra 5 weeks are equivalent to one month and one week. And then I start to wonder how I'll ever make it to the end. I've never been the most patient person, and being pregnant truly does affect everything I do. I always assumed that it was something that I could toss into the back of my mind until I was further along, but this kid really doesn't let me! First, it was nausea; now my stomach is gradually expanding and making it uncomfortable to sleep at night or to even sit upright. And finally, it'll be the monstrous belly with the kicking to keep me occupied.
My baby has grown another 1.4 cm to top it off at 10.1 cm long and it now weighs in around 70 grams and is approximately the size of a softball.
I keep commenting on how fast the baby is growing, and the highest rates of growth will occur over the next few weeks; more specifically,
weeks 20 and 25. As my uterus starts to thin, I'll be able to feel the baby flutter about! Actually, it should happen any day now, but most first-time moms aren't able to distinguish the difference between baby movements and stomach rumbles until it happens more frequently.
My baby's skin is thin and is covered with lanugo, which is fine hair, and, interestingly enough, the baby's hair development pattern will be determined this week. After birth, the baby's hair will grow at a rate of 13 mm (1/2 inch) per month. The eyes are still moving, and though the ears are already placed, they will start to grow externally now and nearly look normal. The bones are getting harder and harder and would even be visible if I had an x-ray.
My uterus is about 3-4 inches below my belly button and sleep is going to only become more difficult from now on. A pillow is recommended for between my knees (and I use it to prop up my belly too since all of the weight slides when I'm on my side) to alleviate round ligament pain. Sleeping on the left side is preferred since the weight of the baby and uterus can put pressure on the inferior vena caver, which takes blood from the lower body to the heart. And I guess I need to start eating an extra 300 calories a day, which shouldn't be too hard since we have tons of Halloween candy left, lol. ;)
How am I feeling? Still exhausted. Weekends are usually better, but I find that I usually wake up when my husband gets up for work and have a difficult time falling back asleep. However, since I'm still super tired, I try anyway and wake up really late. And still feel tired. One day over the weekend I started putting the pillow under my belly and slept really well that night, so at least I'm a little more comfortable now.
Any weird food cravings? Hmmm. I haven't satisfied this one yet, but lately I've been wanting chocolate covered almonds.
Mood swings? Yes. And I imagine I'll have them for the rest of the pregnancy. I find that little things irritate me and if not dealt with quickly, it gets bottled up and I have a meltdown. I also find that things are bothering me that shouldn't and it really freaks me out that I'm mis-interpreting what people are saying. I've always thought of myself as having a lower estrogen count (this is my theory, it may be wrong) and so I've never really had PMS. I'd get more irritable during the leadup to my period, but the rest of the time I was usually laid back. Now, my estrogen and progesterone levels are high due to pregnancy (and, if I'm carrying a girl, I imagine they're higher still) so it's really messing with my head. I'm trying to not let things bother me, and if they do bother me, to say something or to find out if what I interpreted is right. It's really stressful for me.
Any baby purchases? We went to this super awesome
toy store and found an inflatable booster seat that will definitely be well used when we visit or go on trips. This handy gadget is compact and straps to any chair so it's perfect for situations where we can't bring our home high chair (or whatever we use). The only thing is that it doesn't have a tray, but considering how small it is compared to the rest of them, it's ok. Maybe we'll just bring our own placemat to prevent too much spillage to the host's table.
What about the nursery? My mom had a used cradle at her house that she kindly gave to us. We plan on leaving this in the living room for naps.
It really hit me the other day that I'm going to be a mom. And not in a glowy kind of way. In a this-is-for-the-rest-of-your-life commitment kind of way. And it terrified me that I'll be losing some of my freedom. I also found a hot topic that can be just as
controversial as talking about religion! And it really set me off that I'm already facing this kind of pressure when I'm not even 4 months along. It's a personal decision and no one else's business. My husband finally relented but not after a huge fight and some tears (mine). He still disagrees, but has finally ceded to "we'll see what happens when the baby is born." And it isn't as though I disagree wholly with his side, I just refuse to be trapped by it, especially if there are uncontrollable situations. Plus, as a science major, I don't understand how it is such a miracle cure-for-all and how it can prevent adult health problems. So, with the suggestion of my husband, I'm going to research it.